So, I noticed lots of people picking WORDS for the year. Lots of inspirational words and things they want to work on. Words like HOPE and PATIENCE come to mind immediately as ones I’ve seen over and over. Well, I’ve chosen my words and they may sound negative, but that’s just because they’re typically used in a negative way. I’ve decided that there are 3 negative words I’m taking on as positive in 2015 and they are:
- LAZINESS – No, really. I want that. I wish I could do less in 2015. I stopped working on work for a minute (at 11:18 p.m.) to write this post. After coming home from working as a Special Education teacher at about 5:30 p.m. (my working hours are supposed to officially end at 3:30), I made baked salmon, sweet potatoes, and broccoli for dinner, then made my sons the frozen banana pops I promised them, then did homework with Squeaker, then cleaned the Bearded Dragon’s mat, then immediately began working on lesson plans…untilnow. I need to learn how to incorporate some laziness into my life and take a break now and then. I need to learn to breathe.
- TACTLESSNESS- Will this year be the year that I finally stop walking on egg shells around everyone and just say what I mean? So much energy gets spent (and brain cells die in the process) talking in circles. I literally feel the meaning of what I’m saying get lost every time I try to rephrase something to make someone feel better. I actually think people stand there and think “Just spit it out already!” I should. I really should. Maybe the Golden Rule only applies when you’re intentionally being rude to someone. When you need to say something, shouldn’t you just say it already and not worry so much about feelings, especially when you’re dealing with adults?
- INSANITY – Like what’s-her-name in Frozen says, sometimes I feel like I should just “let it go” instead of worrying so much about what people think. What if I let all the insanity out? I mean, I’m not really crazy, but you know? Sometimes that voice in your head tells you that people will think you’re insane if you say something and you keep it bottled up? That’s me, but how bad could it get? People look at me like I’m weird? Eh. I think I come off as more weird trying to cover up what I think of as weird than I would if I just let all of my personality out.
If for no reason but the fact that I just need to a break from my own mental exhaustion, I’m going with LAZINESS, TACTLESSNESS, and INSANITY for 2015.