Today’s letter of the day in the A-to-Z Challenge is C, so I figured, what better what to fit in the letter C than to talk about how Chronically Tired I am? My husband would argue that my exhaustion is my own making, and he’s probably right. I’m chronically tired because I never sleep enough. I guess we could mostly consider that my fault. Except when it’s not my fault. I’ll explain in my list.
- Lesson plans. I’ve stay up until 2 a.m. working on lesson plans before. It’s crazy, but true. I’m coming to a place where I’m recognizing that I can no longer do that.
- When I don’t do work, I blog. I’ll stay up too late blogging because I don’t want to take time away from the kids and I wait until they go to bed. Who needs sleep, right?
- Bloody noses. I kid you not. One night, I almost got to bed, when I heard crying from the other room. Big Guy had a bloody nose, and then another one after that one. I wound up needing to put him in bed with me so I could get the crappiest night’s sleep ever, but at least he slept well.
- Anxiety. Sometimes I just cannot turn my brain off. It just keeps going like washing machine on an endless spin cycle.
- Early awakenings. Sometimes Squeaker gets up at 4 a.m. and wakes up the entire household. In worst case scenario, this happens after nights I’ve been up late. Then I’ve really gotten no sleep. Yeesh!
- Restless Leg Syndrome. Sometimes the medication I’m on works, sometimes my restlessness makes me toss and turn all night.
- Writing articles syndication on other blogs or sponsored social media posts that I’ve obligated myself to write will sometimes keep me up because the only time I’ve got to get them done is after I’ve put the kids to bed and after I’ve finished the work I brought home from school.
- Reading work emails. This can lead to tragic circumstances for me because I will spend time trying to come up with a politically correct response when it calls for one.
- Writing IEPs. It takes me a long time to write an IEP because I write truly individualized plans and I’m also a bit of a perfectionist. If not for my incessant desire to get things right, it wouldn’t take me so long, but that’s just not my nature.
- Chronic pain. I’ve gotten my Fibromyalgia mostly under control at this point thanks to adding Lyrica on board, but I’ve had nights my pain has gotten so unbearable I’ve not been able to sleep due to discomfort. Occasionally my back pain will flare up and cause issues, too, but I’ve gotten most of my pain under control.
The irony of most of my personal issues is that if I would sleep more, I’d feel better. I could focus more, feel more well-rested, and even feel less pain from my Fibromyalgia with more sleep. When I do rest more, I dealing with the everyday stressors that I need to deal with at school and at home become easier. I just find it difficult to get in the amount of sleep that I need to. I am working on getting my act together and making myself get more sleep. I’ve actually made it to bed before midnight most nights this week–a huge change for me!
What keeps you up at night?
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