It is no surprise that my son, Squeaker, has difficulty in school. His autism makes it hard for him to function both socially and academically. For years, we have been working on getting him to manage his frustrations in more socially appropriate ways, and we have made a lot of progress. This year, he has taken some steps in the wrong direction with his growth and progress. I would wager to say that he has never displayed behaviors as severe as he has this year. From hitting other kids to throwing furniture, he’s displayed his displeasure with school in the most destructive ways. It disheartened me to hear him talk about how much he hates school after so many years of hearing him talk about how much he loves school. Seeing his enthusiasm for learning dwindle bit-by-bit is perhaps one of the saddest side-effects of people not understanding my son. In the end, I feel called to wonder “what if” on so many levels.
What if the world were made more fair
And compassion could be found
What if they didn’t dare compare
My son to those around
What if they sought to understand
Before seeking consequences
What if they tried to lend a hand
Instead of raising his defenses
What they gave him sensory breaks
What if they forgave his mistakes
To give him motivation
What if the whole world understood
And gave my son a chance
If they gave him sense of brotherhood
I know I’d want to dance
And while I have not given up
Sometimes I wish for more
From a world they needs to wake up
And allow all kids to soar
On Wednesday of next week, we have another IEP meeting to go over how my son is doing in school and what we need to do from here. I really hope that we can turn things around and create a renewed enthusiasm for learning in Squeaker. I just want him to learn, grow, and feel confidence again. Maybe one day the world will understand autism better, and I will no longer need to wonder what could be.
Originally posted 2016-01-08 20:30:30.